
Experiencing Life With EðŸ’
Today in simple terms was horrible. Nothing bad happened physically to me but mentally I was under attack and I felt I was going to explode.
Long story short
I transitioned into a new position and I thought it would be fun and an cool opportunity
And I’m not saying it can’t be
Because there are so many benefits
And perks
But the downside of not being able to work with people who can’t do what’s best for the team
Will always bother me
Lately I’ve been questioning if I made a mistake with this transition
But I honestly don’t think I did
I feel we are at that uncomfortable awkward stage where everyone is trying to
Get their voice heard
But I feel if everyone just listened more we could sail through this uncomfortable stage and get to work
Today I wanted to explode during my meeting and honestly I did lol
I left and had a mini meltdown in the bathroom
Went for a donut to replenish my sugar levels
And returned
Still flustered but I came back
Even tho I thought about never coming back
I identified one area of improvement I need to work on is giving up when things become too hard or uncomfortable for me
I need to figure out a way to make this work for me until it’s time for my next journey
To decompress I decided to do something different
And I went to the skating rink and I just skated my little heart away
And it felt so good
To just be there
Listening to music
Moving
I even wrote some mental scripts featuring a Skating Rink
Wish me luck with not giving up
And my skating rink story